Rebellion

I've been reading a book called Beck Diet Solution that is a compliment to whatever diet plan you're following.  It uses cognitive therapy techniques (something I'm a huge fan of since using them to combat my depression) to help you succeed on an eating plan.  I'm using the word diet because as much as I want this to be a "lifestyle plan", I'm calling it like it is.
A core concept in the book is to create a food plan for every day and then don't waver from it.  I got to that part in the book and then one night I diligently prepared my food plan for the next day, with only the best of intentions.  Up to this point I had been doing WW for two weeks and was very much staying on plan.  Unfortunately the creation of that food plan ran this train off the rails, so to speak.  I knew what was happening all day even as it was happening... I was rebelling.  Putting my food plan for the day in writing ahead of time gave me something to rebel against.  Something to resist.  When the author talks about how we want to strengthen our 'resistance' muscle, I don't think she meant to resist the food plan itself!

So that one day of off plan eating led to three days during which I really struggled to make good choices and keep within my points.  I was hyper-focused on food and even went through another period of grieving the junk I used to eat, also known as my food crutches.  Today is a Monday and fortunately, I woke up clear-headed and ready to get back on track.  So that's what I'm doing.

I'm still reading the book that recommended the food plan, but so much of it revolves around the food plan and resisting deviations from it that I don't know how much I'll be able to get out of the book.  I'm sticking with it for now because I still need help with all the sabatoging thoughts that are part of this weight loss journey.

My goal for this week is to be back on the WW plan every day - tracking and getting all my GHG's every day.  With exercise and water thrown in for good measure!